Family tree. I think of the ways I am with this place, myself as a layered quilt, the strata I can’t dig too deeply into or it will fall apart. Newbies. I’m more like bones and leaves and dirt piled up precariously. But still, I am more here than anywhere else, and as helixes turn in my blood, I fold myself into this place now. All the previous bodies of harm and heartache are laid down beneath my feet. And I learn to love myself, loving you, and forgive, as the harm is the ground that holds me. Mending and still only just tacked together🪡📌 Pieces of silk printed with commodified bodies and bilateral drawings, coloured with domestic dyes and leaves to an opacity. Sticks of silky oak, and sheoak chattered with machines. All our natures mixed without hierarchy. Backyard tree stump and mistletoe haustoria remnants polished and woven with python bones and twine. These pieces of here, of us, tended to with devotion, will also become ground, that I hope will hold you too.
 #silkyoak #sheoak #silk #printedtextile #domesticdeity #chatterworked #chatterwork #python #bones #mistletoe #haustoria #green #holding #mending #piecesofme #photomontage #newground #ancestry #theground #newbies #strata #layersofhere #sensorimotordrawing #quilt #bilateraldrawing 
ID: layers of different coloured and sized  green silk are pieced together. The fabric is printed but you cannot really see the imagery because the colour drowns it out. It is held by a silkyoak carved stick and tacks, it is rectangular as a whole and there are small pieces of carved wood, mistletoe, red gum, sheoak and snake bones threaded together with twine, adoring it.

Family tree. I think of the ways I am with this place, myself as a layered quilt, the strata I can’t dig too deeply into or it will fall apart. Newbies. I’m more like bones and leaves and dirt piled up precariously. But still, I am more here than anywhere else, and as helixes turn in my blood, I fold myself into this place now. All the previous bodies of harm and heartache are laid down beneath my feet. And I learn to love myself, loving you, and forgive, as the harm is the ground that holds me. Mending and still only just tacked together🪡📌 Pieces of silk printed with commodified bodies and bilateral drawings, coloured with domestic dyes and leaves to an opacity. Sticks of silky oak, and sheoak chattered with machines. All our natures mixed without hierarchy. Backyard tree stump and mistletoe haustoria remnants polished and woven with python bones and twine. These pieces of here, of us, tended to with devotion, will also become ground, that I hope will hold you too.
#silkyoak #sheoak #silk #printedtextile #domesticdeity #chatterworked #chatterwork #python #bones #mistletoe #haustoria #green #holding #mending #piecesofme #photomontage #newground #ancestry #theground #newbies #strata #layersofhere #sensorimotordrawing #quilt #bilateraldrawing
ID: layers of different coloured and sized green silk are pieced together. The fabric is printed but you cannot really see the imagery because the colour drowns it out. It is held by a silkyoak carved stick and tacks, it is rectangular as a whole and there are small pieces of carved wood, mistletoe, red gum, sheoak and snake bones threaded together with twine, adoring it.
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Learning how you want to be loved, piecing myself together #layers #mending #learning #piecingtogether

Learning how you want to be loved, piecing myself together #layers #mending #learning #piecingtogether ...

Mind map  #sensorimotordrawing

Mind map #sensorimotordrawing ...

The times…🕸 life evolves to fit the world in which it finds itself

The times…🕸 life evolves to fit the world in which it finds itself ...

My body straddles a time when women could and couldn’t speak out about abuse. 

My body is still an anomaly. 

My body has been able to break intergenerational violence because it was born in a window where there were small opportunities that had never been before. 

I still see bodies that can’t speak out, and I still struggle to speak what hasn’t been said for generations. 

To see a ‘first world’ country shut a door that allowed bodies born into intergenerational violence have some access to a different path is devastating. 

These decisions affect all humanity, and for our bodies to deal with traumas our culture creates, we need options. 

To deny a body autonomy is to send violence into the future. 

ID: close up of regenerated bushland.

#roevswade #autonomy #intergenerationalviolence #intergenerationaltrauma

My body straddles a time when women could and couldn’t speak out about abuse.

My body is still an anomaly.

My body has been able to break intergenerational violence because it was born in a window where there were small opportunities that had never been before.

I still see bodies that can’t speak out, and I still struggle to speak what hasn’t been said for generations.

To see a ‘first world’ country shut a door that allowed bodies born into intergenerational violence have some access to a different path is devastating.

These decisions affect all humanity, and for our bodies to deal with traumas our culture creates, we need options.

To deny a body autonomy is to send violence into the future.

ID: close up of regenerated bushland.

#roevswade #autonomy #intergenerationalviolence #intergenerationaltrauma
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Girraween before the rain last year. The way of slow water and stone.

Girraween before the rain last year. The way of slow water and stone. ...

That time ✨

That time ✨ ...

Piecing together a density of experiences, flickering veils in my mind. Parts float, longing for a place. Rearranging themselves together again and again. Gently. Carefully. Making a home. Quicks sticks, slow down.

Piecing together a density of experiences, flickering veils in my mind. Parts float, longing for a place. Rearranging themselves together again and again. Gently. Carefully. Making a home. Quicks sticks, slow down. ...

Bunya arm, fallen on the roadside, ant-
terraformer home. The resin like blood. I’m concerned as I carve. All of us stepping within and around each other, this time now is so short in comparison to araucaria’s life story. Bunya’s ongoing relationship with humans, it’s resin wounds, exactly like me grazing a knee, and I wonder,…where do i begin…where do we end…  #bunya #ants #ongoinghumanplantrelationships #araucaria #time #resin #iron #keystones #lomandraplacestudios #alwayswasalwayswillbe

Bunya arm, fallen on the roadside, ant-
terraformer home. The resin like blood. I’m concerned as I carve. All of us stepping within and around each other, this time now is so short in comparison to araucaria’s life story. Bunya’s ongoing relationship with humans, it’s resin wounds, exactly like me grazing a knee, and I wonder,…where do i begin…where do we end… #bunya #ants #ongoinghumanplantrelationships #araucaria #time #resin #iron #keystones #lomandraplacestudios #alwayswasalwayswillbe
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Slow computer 💻 folding dirt. Back in my real life studio. After a very long hiatus, (many things). I’m going through all the piles a piles of paper I printed with varying hazardous plant bacterial life and somatic acts and trying to decide how to go forward. I find myself tending to them, like living things, small gardens, while I move like a big slow chugging computer.

Slow computer 💻 folding dirt. Back in my real life studio. After a very long hiatus, (many things). I’m going through all the piles a piles of paper I printed with varying hazardous plant bacterial life and somatic acts and trying to decide how to go forward. I find myself tending to them, like living things, small gardens, while I move like a big slow chugging computer. ...

Wappa dam observatory, Saturday night, Nambour show long weekend. ⚡️

Wappa dam observatory, Saturday night, Nambour show long weekend. ⚡️ ...

Last night in the dark a big blue shooting star went past this window. The biggest I’ve ever seen. 💫🌚

Last night in the dark a big blue shooting star went past this window. The biggest I’ve ever seen. 💫🌚 ...

Somewhere near where the mountain begins…maybe, base of the waterfall,
Ninderry, Kabi Kabi Country

Somewhere near where the mountain begins…maybe, base of the waterfall,
Ninderry, Kabi Kabi Country
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Coomba falls. A while back. Sheoak toes in sorrow water. Wakka Wakka country. Much reconciliation by colonial so called Australia needed, and histories to be owned and taught. Settlement caused so much destruction and tragedy. Heartbreaking and sublime place, it’s still caring for the people who’s lives were taken here. ❤️‍🩹

Coomba falls. A while back. Sheoak toes in sorrow water. Wakka Wakka country. Much reconciliation by colonial so called Australia needed, and histories to be owned and taught. Settlement caused so much destruction and tragedy. Heartbreaking and sublime place, it’s still caring for the people who’s lives were taken here. ❤️‍🩹 ...

The ways. Spending time on the edge of a forest on Wakka Wakka Country, where things have been let to be for some time (of course after usual colonial *%#%*) always feels so very humaning. All my senses get to stretch out and feel around into a biosphere that is not being hacked at all the time. Parts of my brain and body that usually contract get to have active roles again. 
When I first became disabled I read a lot about sensory information and our neurological uptake. I found studies on how much information we block out because our brains have to focus on an influx of information and symbols, which allow us to navigate our built up environments- and function automatically (the thing my body struggles with). We block what isn’t considered immediately necessary to our survival so our body can focus on our basic functions. (Except mine-which thinks everything is necessary)
It is the lovely thing sitting inside forest, all those flashing signs and symbols have disappeared  and the subtle signs and ways of a non human environment come to the front. 
I’m always grateful to be able to find these ways after a build up of modern life and how important they are for mending. 🪡🌿🪨➿
ID: bilateral sensorimotor drawing overlay on mist and forest photograph 
#sensorimotordrawing #bilateraldrawing #theways #autonomicdysfunction #sensoryinformation #subtleways #desirelines #landscapephotography #biosphere #symbiocene #somaticdrawing #cptsd

The ways. Spending time on the edge of a forest on Wakka Wakka Country, where things have been let to be for some time (of course after usual colonial *%#%*) always feels so very humaning. All my senses get to stretch out and feel around into a biosphere that is not being hacked at all the time. Parts of my brain and body that usually contract get to have active roles again.
When I first became disabled I read a lot about sensory information and our neurological uptake. I found studies on how much information we block out because our brains have to focus on an influx of information and symbols, which allow us to navigate our built up environments- and function automatically (the thing my body struggles with). We block what isn’t considered immediately necessary to our survival so our body can focus on our basic functions. (Except mine-which thinks everything is necessary)
It is the lovely thing sitting inside forest, all those flashing signs and symbols have disappeared and the subtle signs and ways of a non human environment come to the front.
I’m always grateful to be able to find these ways after a build up of modern life and how important they are for mending. 🪡🌿🪨➿
ID: bilateral sensorimotor drawing overlay on mist and forest photograph
#sensorimotordrawing #bilateraldrawing #theways #autonomicdysfunction #sensoryinformation #subtleways #desirelines #landscapephotography #biosphere #symbiocene #somaticdrawing #cptsd
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All the heres now, always piecing it together. #radioartefacts #timeandlight #sensorimotordrawing #overlays #alltheheresnow #landscapeoverlays #alltheplaceshere #themotionofnow #bilateraldrawing #photomontage #cantstopnow #timequilt #cptsd #sotherapy

All the heres now, always piecing it together. #radioartefacts #timeandlight #sensorimotordrawing #overlays #alltheheresnow #landscapeoverlays #alltheplaceshere #themotionofnow #bilateraldrawing #photomontage #cantstopnow #timequilt #cptsd #sotherapy ...

Maroochy @ dusk, Kabi Kabi Country sleeping bird/swan

Maroochy @ dusk, Kabi Kabi Country sleeping bird/swan ...

Radio artefacts. 📻 I hear you all the time. I think about what is missing. Or what we saw before. Collations of times and light #timeandlight #radiowaves #alltheplaceshereatonce #bodiesofweather #hereallthetime #ihearyouontheradio #bilateraldrawing #layersoftime #invisiblebodies #alltime #sensorimotordrawing #spectrums #bigbang #artefacts #remnants #remains #landscapephotography #radioartefacts #whitenoise #electricradio

Radio artefacts. 📻 I hear you all the time. I think about what is missing. Or what we saw before. Collations of times and light #timeandlight #radiowaves #alltheplaceshereatonce #bodiesofweather #hereallthetime #ihearyouontheradio #bilateraldrawing #layersoftime #invisiblebodies #alltime #sensorimotordrawing #spectrums #bigbang #artefacts #remnants #remains #landscapephotography #radioartefacts #whitenoise #electricradio ...

Bodies of weather 🌬 It’s the feels at the moment. As things slump into one another with the ongoing wet. My biome’s composition feels a bit like that of the forests, everything interpenetrating and entangling. It always is I guess, but maybe I just notice it more with this level of damp. The landscape is changing. Ghost lagoons appear on paddocks with the die off of grass and bushes drowning. Tree lines are misted with mud from high water marks. All the boundaries are changing. I wonder if more trees will develop breathing roots, pneumatophores, like mangroves. 
This is a composite of long exposure iphone forest campfire and rain photographs and bilateral sensorimotor drawing (daily somatic practice) woven in between the layers. #bodiesofweather #sensorimotordrawing #firestories #mist #rain #biomes #somaticpractice #climatechange #entanglement #ghostwater #symbiocene #pneumatophores #photocomposite #photomontage #layersofhere #landscapephotography #bilateraldrawing

Bodies of weather 🌬 It’s the feels at the moment. As things slump into one another with the ongoing wet. My biome’s composition feels a bit like that of the forests, everything interpenetrating and entangling. It always is I guess, but maybe I just notice it more with this level of damp. The landscape is changing. Ghost lagoons appear on paddocks with the die off of grass and bushes drowning. Tree lines are misted with mud from high water marks. All the boundaries are changing. I wonder if more trees will develop breathing roots, pneumatophores, like mangroves.
This is a composite of long exposure iphone forest campfire and rain photographs and bilateral sensorimotor drawing (daily somatic practice) woven in between the layers. #bodiesofweather #sensorimotordrawing #firestories #mist #rain #biomes #somaticpractice #climatechange #entanglement #ghostwater #symbiocene #pneumatophores #photocomposite #photomontage #layersofhere #landscapephotography #bilateraldrawing
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Sometimes the light looks a bit like a painting. Wakka Wakka County #landscapephotography #subtropicalrainforest

Sometimes the light looks a bit like a painting. Wakka Wakka County #landscapephotography #subtropicalrainforest ...

So many wet trees falling everywhere, dangerous stepping through at times. Fungal worlds, interpenetrating everything, maybe fungi are the wet fire. 🌿🌊🔥🍄 new systems building on the collapse of old ones. Well I’m hoping. Wakka Wakka Country. 💚 Back home and my backyard on a mountain ⛰ has been a swamp most of the year.💧🦆#floods #fungi #mould

So many wet trees falling everywhere, dangerous stepping through at times. Fungal worlds, interpenetrating everything, maybe fungi are the wet fire. 🌿🌊🔥🍄 new systems building on the collapse of old ones. Well I’m hoping. Wakka Wakka Country. 💚 Back home and my backyard on a mountain ⛰ has been a swamp most of the year.💧🦆#floods #fungi #mould ...

Hut-core views 🌳🛖 Wakka Wakka Country.

Hut-core views 🌳🛖 Wakka Wakka Country. ...

Misty forest and roadside tree borer pattern rubbings @rossannels and I nearly run over doing them.. Rainy rain here, mushrooms and moss and falling down trees. Little off grid shack nearly out of power. But we have a wood stove! 🔥🌿⛰

Misty forest and roadside tree borer pattern rubbings @rossannels and I nearly run over doing them.. Rainy rain here, mushrooms and moss and falling down trees. Little off grid shack nearly out of power. But we have a wood stove! 🔥🌿⛰ ...

Fresh marriage 💝 #stinkhorn #bridalveilstinkhorn #bridalveilmushroom

Fresh marriage 💝 #stinkhorn #bridalveilstinkhorn #bridalveilmushroom ...

Just past the headless fowl. There’s a … moon on the rise. Whoops maybe going the long way….

Just past the headless fowl. There’s a … moon on the rise. Whoops maybe going the long way…. ...

Layers of in between. Grain of box mistletoe entangled with sheoak, campfire and bilateral sensorimotor drawing. #australiannativemistletoe #entanglement #interdependence #emergence #biospheres #umwelt #feltspace #layersofplace #sensorimotordrawing #bilateraldrawing #campfire

Layers of in between. Grain of box mistletoe entangled with sheoak, campfire and bilateral sensorimotor drawing. #australiannativemistletoe #entanglement #interdependence #emergence #biospheres #umwelt #feltspace #layersofplace #sensorimotordrawing #bilateraldrawing #campfire ...

Plant inks still growing, under something missing 🧪⚗️🌳 #plantinks

Plant inks still growing, under something missing 🧪⚗️🌳 #plantinks ...

Campfire radio 📻 🔥🌿 
Something, something. 
ID: layers of long exposure camp fire smoke, plant ink blots, sensorimotor drawing. #campfire #plantinks #sensorimotordrawing #layers #doyouremember #blots #invisiblebodies #bodiesofweather #entanglement #interdependence #emergent

Campfire radio 📻 🔥🌿
Something, something.
ID: layers of long exposure camp fire smoke, plant ink blots, sensorimotor drawing. #campfire #plantinks #sensorimotordrawing #layers #doyouremember #blots #invisiblebodies #bodiesofweather #entanglement #interdependence #emergent
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Campfires. Humans have been making them for at least 400,000 years, some quick google says maybe up to a million. They are nearly a part of who we are. But we’ve had them a lot less frequently since we swapped them for electricity. It’s hard to find places where we are now allowed to have them. We’ve become so unused to them- maybe inept or unskilled, therefore increasing risk associated with them. I am always soooo grateful to sit under rainforest trees and stars and stare at the flames and smoke of a campfire. It refills something I mostly forget is missing, until it appears again. #campfires #illusions #longexposure #layers #apparitions #gathering #interdependence #fire #rainforest

Campfires. Humans have been making them for at least 400,000 years, some quick google says maybe up to a million. They are nearly a part of who we are. But we’ve had them a lot less frequently since we swapped them for electricity. It’s hard to find places where we are now allowed to have them. We’ve become so unused to them- maybe inept or unskilled, therefore increasing risk associated with them. I am always soooo grateful to sit under rainforest trees and stars and stare at the flames and smoke of a campfire. It refills something I mostly forget is missing, until it appears again. #campfires #illusions #longexposure #layers #apparitions #gathering #interdependence #fire #rainforest ...

Knowing me knowing you. Off to the forest. It’s been a while. Needed. Phew. 🔥✨🌿#inkblots #whatyouknow #layers #photography #photomontage #composite #plantinks #reversed #behindthescenes #scrying in your #crying #patternsofthought #blotdivining #Rorschach  #apparition Plant ink blot on ink jet print of forest reversed and layered back over image. No lion 🦁 I’ve been scryin. Seeing what you expect. Seeing what you need.

Knowing me knowing you. Off to the forest. It’s been a while. Needed. Phew. 🔥✨🌿#inkblots #whatyouknow #layers #photography #photomontage #composite #plantinks #reversed #behindthescenes #scrying in your #crying #patternsofthought #blotdivining #Rorschach #apparition Plant ink blot on ink jet print of forest reversed and layered back over image. No lion 🦁 I’ve been scryin. Seeing what you expect. Seeing what you need. ...

I wrote it all down, I wanted to make sense 😱#herenow #sensorimotordrawing #plantinks #layersofnow #ways #blots #itallnevermakessense #all

I wrote it all down, I wanted to make sense 😱#herenow #sensorimotordrawing #plantinks #layersofnow #ways #blots #itallnevermakessense #all ...

Selfie with visitor, time machine #slides #reflections #layers #timemachine #outthewindow

Selfie with visitor, time machine #slides #reflections #layers #timemachine #outthewindow ...

💚🌿 shifting landscapes

💚🌿 shifting landscapes ...

Blurry waterfall. Thinking of illusions, expectations, hidden mother photography, eco gendering and the value of care. Anyone else? #illusions #hiddenmotherphotography #ecogender #carework #thevalueofcare #waterfalls #pareidolia #eidolon

Blurry waterfall. Thinking of illusions, expectations, hidden mother photography, eco gendering and the value of care. Anyone else? #illusions #hiddenmotherphotography #ecogender #carework #thevalueofcare #waterfalls #pareidolia #eidolon ...

Landscape painting #landscapepainting

Landscape painting #landscapepainting ...

Myths. All the layers, all the times, mostly we see what we’ve been taught to see. Mistletoe seeds on drawings on distant photographs on macro of mistletoe grain #mistletoe  #sensorimotordrawing #myths #photography #drawing #rorschach #barometer #allthetimes

Myths. All the layers, all the times, mostly we see what we’ve been taught to see. Mistletoe seeds on drawings on distant photographs on macro of mistletoe grain #mistletoe #sensorimotordrawing #myths #photography #drawing #rorschach #barometer #allthetimes ...

All our layers, All being here together. Silky-oak knots and rays, waterfall, mist, moss, plant inks, somatic drawing. #overlays #photomontage #drawing #photography #layers #sensorimotordrawing #timeofplace #allhereatonce #microbialstate

All our layers, All being here together. Silky-oak knots and rays, waterfall, mist, moss, plant inks, somatic drawing. #overlays #photomontage #drawing #photography #layers #sensorimotordrawing #timeofplace #allhereatonce #microbialstate ...

A carpet to fall into. 🌿🤲 Trying to make somewhere to land. Layers of plant ink blots and misty forest. If you zoom in there’s multitudes. I’ve been floating above my body trying to find a place inside to land. Trauma is like this. I have to remember that my nervous system has such a giant array of survival strategies and when triggered it will use them all. I find myself so far away from myself without anywhere to land. Things seem too close and so very far away all at once. I remember staring into carpet as child and seeing so many minute worlds within the patterns. Staring at mountains far away and imagining all the animals moving around living their secret lives. Again, I try to remember everywhere is alive and living unseen lives I know nothing about, so many possibilities. And to be kind to myself and my very surviving survival skills from another time. #plantinks #forestmist #carpet #layers #somewheretorest #falling #cptsd #survivalskills #somewheretoland #disassociation #unseens #plantink #overlays #misty #inbetween #rest #thechangingstatesoftrauma #fluidstates #changingstatesofmatter

A carpet to fall into. 🌿🤲 Trying to make somewhere to land. Layers of plant ink blots and misty forest. If you zoom in there’s multitudes. I’ve been floating above my body trying to find a place inside to land. Trauma is like this. I have to remember that my nervous system has such a giant array of survival strategies and when triggered it will use them all. I find myself so far away from myself without anywhere to land. Things seem too close and so very far away all at once. I remember staring into carpet as child and seeing so many minute worlds within the patterns. Staring at mountains far away and imagining all the animals moving around living their secret lives. Again, I try to remember everywhere is alive and living unseen lives I know nothing about, so many possibilities. And to be kind to myself and my very surviving survival skills from another time. #plantinks #forestmist #carpet #layers #somewheretorest #falling #cptsd #survivalskills #somewheretoland #disassociation #unseens #plantink #overlays #misty #inbetween #rest #thechangingstatesoftrauma #fluidstates #changingstatesofmatter ...

Entropic bodies of weather 🌬🦴⚗️✨🕯

ID:Layers of long exposure campfire photographs, dual handed somatic drawing and close ups of household detritus 

#sensorimotordrawing #photography #longexposure #layers #entropy #bodiesofweather #gathering #symbiocene #drawing

Entropic bodies of weather 🌬🦴⚗️✨🕯

ID:Layers of long exposure campfire photographs, dual handed somatic drawing and close ups of household detritus

#sensorimotordrawing #photography #longexposure #layers #entropy #bodiesofweather #gathering #symbiocene #drawing
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When things are very dark I try to remember all around me is life and living. Ways in the dark 💚🌿✨#latentsensoryreceptors #surrenderyourtinybody #theplantshaveeyes #epidermalcelllens #superorganism

When things are very dark I try to remember all around me is life and living. Ways in the dark 💚🌿✨#latentsensoryreceptors #surrenderyourtinybody #theplantshaveeyes #epidermalcelllens #superorganism ...

in between

in between ...

In between

In between ...

Vincent Van Gogh slime?

Vincent Van Gogh slime? ...

Mould drama !

Mould drama ! ...